when i looked at those, i picture myself & even with how much it takes, i knew i already blew my chance away.
so let's just say it was a lesson learnt, a favour earned, an experience gained, stories unfold, new friends found, a great moment & especially a happy ending for you people.
i never see this scene got tangled up in me before but now, it doesnt seem to matter anymore.
i had my leave, i had to.
i had my fair share of once, a memory i will keep throughout.
someday, i may just lose it all once again.

never see it coming, never regretting it...

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first & foremost, congrats to kai & band for getting fourth position!
am very proud of you people!

went out with the boys for BK & icecream!

then we had that anniversary menu meeting & training for staffs...
not all came, anyway.
guess who i met?
everybody knows the answer!

cheerleading was... wow woah. like so long before!
obviously, it was so last minute!
& i had to wear that damn 2006 NPCC Day Parade shirt cause i dont know where other NP shirts have gone to!

& we saw this big & beautiful rainbow outside Century Square!
i tell you, there were so many people taking pictures of it!
well, it doesnt really happen all the time, so why not!

p.s. i think you're wise enough man, to be responsible for your actions. for goodness sake, you are like 2 years older than me! own up man, it's not that hard to do. i dont wanna make a big fuss over money. please, do your part, because i did mine. asshole.

psssst. i dont like to regain that feeling back. can someone like wake me up inside? throw me against a wall or something? give me a new nickname? i cant take two or three at one go! oh God, please, i just need one for once & show me the way.

Labels: you cant be nice all the time, you know?

i wish, i dont know that many things about you.
either way, feelings have already turned blue.
sometimes, i run too far away.
only to know you lead me astray.
so please, one day it might be.
it will soon come to set me free.

p.s. dont appear then hilang then appear then hilang. sumpah aku penat.

& not forgetting, dudes, please win that competition tomorrow aye!
im really sorry kai, for not going & im sure you people gonna do well!

Labels: on shuffle mode.

superpeople of love in Haagen Dazs CS, i dont want that damn farewell party.

& the question why leads to many, if so there are any.
& even the answers are blurry, wherever i may be.
& now the uncertainty leaks.
& then it starts to freak.
so tell me why it took so long.
so ask me why it takes after a song.
so let's just dance this night & sway.
so please take my breath away.

reminder to ownself : dont get too high with hopes, haslina!!!

next on the list, kak lyz is like dontknowwhatshitsheengagedorwhat!
nyahaha.
because of her, i cant work today, i dont have time to study for engineering maths test tmr & i hafta clean the house!
but all is worth it baby!
so let the pictures take its toll!
many family people i adore!

the ustaz2 dont know saying what!

the budaks2.

the eating part!

when suddenly all comes together!

lepak.

shagged ey!

princess of the day!

when the ring goes into the finger...

all in a days' work!

Labels: not too deep yet.

this week is greeeaaaaaat man!
started from monday to meet shazana & shopped with her after sch.
followed by tuesday in having a happy fun time with dearest fizah.
lastly,just now to have a late lunch with rin & collect our chocolate hazelnut brittle pint from workplace. yum yum!
catch-up with people of love was nicely done.

12 years of friendship & counting as we grow up,baybeh!

the boys asked me to jam with them! hahaha. i had a great time! korang please lah menang ITE Tamp Band Idol competition okay dudes!

gonna be damn busy this weekend,people!
gotta work my ass off from friday till sunday!
then abang nizam going to masuk meminang on sunday itself.
i have engineering maths test on monday!
so till then, so long.

Labels: so let' s say ...

The Fray - Happiness.

Happiness is just outside my window
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can`t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
`cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that`s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you`ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she`ll be home
Home, home, home

i say,
sometimes i want you to cry so badly before you sleep,
i want you to feel terribly confused everytime you're alone thinking,
i want you to feel the taunting of your guilt,
i want you to shiver with agony in bidding goodbye,
i want you to be in melancholic while nursing a heartache,
i want you to write many words in your diary to describe you sorrow,
i want you to feel how it is to be disappointed by someone who gave you effing high hopes.
i want to know what actually happened, the reasons, the motive, the excuses.
i want to know everything you've been hiding.
but at the same time, i want to leave it all at one go too.
cause i cant see you going through what i went.
everyone says it's unfair how it is & how it gets,
but at the end of the day,
i see that i cant be bothered, no matter how much i really want to know.

Labels: i want to.

i had great fun with people of love from ITE during our school bbq pit at east coast ey!
damned. im sure gonna miss you people like for sure!
& i know that when i'm gone, you people dont have anyone to disturb! nyehehe.
dang! pictures are with shakirin so will upload it real soon alright.
btw, danial alzulfik brought me to the nearest fitness park during the bbq along with luqman & izwan found us while riding alzulfik's bike. alzulfik said that he's gonna miss me & he wanted some quiet moments with me before im gone... aww dude.
YOU KNOW THAT IM GONNA FOR HELL LIKE MISS YOU ALL!!!

that HOD of MEED, linda dont-know-whats-her-surname, talked with me about life & studies. man,she's really not scary la. she like can give you good piece of advice you know! you guys should consult her. ehe.
so adin brought martel & faridah & fudhail was drunked. like oh my. haha.
went home with sham!

people, you should know that it's hard on me to make this decision. i know many wanted me to reconsider my option to poly...but alas, i got into it.let me chase my dreams okay? i want to be an engineer! as much as i dont wanna leave ITE life, at the same time, i badly wanna get out from there too! dont ask me why, many reasons are in the way, many reasons too for me to stay. but i just gotta do what my heart wants me too. i will still remember the times when we eat the nasi lemak, eat at school canteen with the taik burung many2, let you boys disturb me till i cant take it, study together, go for outings, laughters, hugs, kisses, bitching - those things i can never forget. you people brought me to another level of life & every one of you meant something to me somehow.

as usual for saturday will be madrasah 3-6. what else is new! except for the fact that we're changing to a new location! well, somewhere near! aha. whatever it is, the boys so irritating, like bloody hell, make me laugh until my tudung senget. hah. okay eh people, 6 years in the same class & counting! :)

rushed for work soon after got home. such a busy, awful, valentine saturday.
here are the reasons why :
1) not enough working people!
2) not enough seats & booths! hah.
3) bloody customers who are not patient - ask for many fucking things.
4) too many orders! nyahaha.
5) i was hungry - didnt eat since breakfast. ( lucky gastric tak teruk! )
6) like saw many couples like that, irritating you know.
7) stupid assholes from cinema still wanna seat at booths that ive already mopped.

i said NO to all dates cos im busy working. huhu.

& oh yah, sorry yan, tak tolong close kitchen untuk kau, even though i was working kitchen for you.

but am so glad that viona, katherine & sufian was there, along with alan who worked full shift to make working feels much more livelier! THANKS DUDE. ehehe.
i'm like so worned out - went to lepak soon after. eat, smoke, drink. what else. hahaha.
& it was nice of sufian to sent alan & me back home with cab. thanks yan!

& i'm like working on sunday. & need to settle dad's breakfast at 5am cos he's going fishing & izyan is like going madrasah at 745. i dont think im sleeping. damn.

wow, that's a long post for now.
clearly speaking, i miss SHAZANA, AZIL, FIRAH & RIN!
beautiful girls, let's go out after exams!
& not forgetting bestfriend FIZAH, im so gonna spend some time over at CCK soon baby!
which i just found out - my exams are on 09, 10 & 12 of march. what the hell.

Labels: my meds are for show.

met rin to study & eat.
met firah baby & zafran shakey as well too to pass her my school skirt.
what's with all those ite simei students who keep asking me to buy uniform for them?
kambing kan korang! buy your ownself lah! heehee.
let the pictures speak for itself.

as usual, library. where else lah kan. rin is an asshole. she doesnt know how to keep quiet.
she keep laughing her ass off. ended up kena scolding. SLUT. hahaha.
went for maccafe later on. rin made a MISTAKE yet AGAIN. haiya. but her mistake made me thought & ponder about it a good long time.
because it makes me realize that i knew i FINALLY am over & done right here.
DEFINITELY.
CERTAINLY.

see, im strong! didnt i tell you so that i see it coming? but both of us deny it. good what. see now i bear the consequences. thanks eh. but im truly am grateful; for you let me see how true you can be, how nice of it in betrayal of friendship & relationship, how i couldn't trust anyone-not even myself. time heals me, that's for sure. but you never knew how bad it hurts, how the pain seems to still linger & how i always pull myself together despite everything that i couldnt care for.

Labels: senses.

eh rin the faggot kia.
thanks for the blog!
i mean for like editing & doing it for me blahblahblah.
so yah, i cant wait for CNY workpay you know.
cos i need to treat that WIWIN lor.
like say thank you or what.

i got into INTELLIGENT BUILDING TECHNOLOGY at TEMASEK POLY!
yeay!
like finally or what. :)
thanks to everyone, who pushed me through that bad times when i had to study both ITE & 0 lvls.

btw people. IGNORE the post below.
that post is not for me, it's for rin herself. nyahaha.
dasar kambing.

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My cutest friend in the whole wide world - Rin

My breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper.

This one too.

My name is haslina and i work at haagen dazs.
I like irsyad and i have a new nick name at work.
I like the security guards at my work place especially the old ones.
YUM! They're hot! HAHAHA!!!
And i dunt like the makciks at the kedai chicken rice..
Old faggots fuck face...
Weee!!!
And also!
Never forgetting!
Abg sampah COOL ROUND SPECS!

Labels: a little too much bout my self =D