my 2 months holidays was supppperrrrrrbbbbbbb!
watch teevee, play computer games, work my ass off, lepak, jog, go out. what else? :)

okay i feel like buying this dress.

and sentosaaaaaaa, here we comeeeeee!

along with colleagues.

HD TM AND CS.

and yes yes i cant wait for HD TM AND CS CHALET on 13-15 november!

cos it's freeeeeee. woohoo.

okay school have been such an asssss.

i end like 5, 7, 6, 6, 12 from monday to friday.

which left me friday to catch up with my girls.

saturday for madrasah and other what nots.

and sunday morning for work.

and monday back to school. sucky enough? haha.

so everyone, PLEASE SET A DATE WITH ME.

you see, i'm forever that busywoman of yours. heeeee.

and ah lalalalala life has been good, trust me.

ah maybe because i have the bestest bestfriend, the great girls, the best boys, the fun clique at school, the awesome colleagues at work and a homely family.

and people kept asking WHY HAVENT I HAVE A BOYFRIEND?

so the answer will be, WHY NOT? GO FIGURE.

People to meet up soooooon! :

1) FIZAHHHHH! tues and thurs okay!

2) MY G-GIRLS! like meet up soon ramai2.

3) MICHELLE SITOH. awwwww what a bitch. hehehe.

4) DANIAL AZIZ and other them B-Boys!

5) ZURAIMI aka REMY DRAGON MATREP! kita destress yok!

6) SYARIFAH NURDIQA! set time dgn has la fahhhh!
7) AZRI BIN AZIZ!!! i miss you so much... you know!

that's all folks.

another week of school will pass again.

HAPPY BACK TO SCHOOL COOL MOOL POOL MAPLEK NOT COOL. :)

Labels: woohoo.

17 October 2008.
i was the most happiest girl that day.
a year later, i hoped i wasnt happy on that day.

18 October 2008.
wrote a note saying thank you and hoping i could vanish your death sentence from my thoughts.
a year later, i still do remember of you sometimes.

and as the day goes by, i started to wonder. whats really like to have a life without any responsibilities. it's like as if you can do whatever you want. no rules to follow, no time to hold and no charge on sentenced. funny isnt it?

and as i see myself, busy with school which is starting like in a few hours times and work, i mirrored myself with such upholding pride that i know there so are many things people need me to do so as to live up to their expectations.

and when people start to supervise and questionise, i got scared because i might not answer, i might break down halfway or i could just ignore every single remark. but i couldnt, right?

and as much as others encouragement and support comes by, its me.
it's so hard.
but i'll live by.

PEACE.

scared to let go of what i have now.

hard to adapt to new situations.

so i asked myself as to how.

with everyone else perceptions.

& i seek of what's left to hold.

so bear in mind of the heart of soul.

& the stories are left untold.

so there goes the words of foul.

airway, block away.

let me breathe.

sickness, go away.

let me breathe.

let me live.

Labels: so simple but yet complicated

Happy Raya People!
Some picture clicks of out with Girlfriends and ITE mates.

" biar terus ku berlari dan lari,

waktu yang sama ku mencari,

jalan keluar dari mimpi ini..."

and together, with many reasons why, i found myself done.

so Raya comes and goes.

and as usual, th 11 houses on first day, the jalan raya with friends and blablabla.

pictures all at FB okay!

and now i just wonder how everything should flow.

and when one's presence becomes a dream.

but that's when dreams are not for the reality.

so maybe even with all the teases, it became immuned.

and even at times when we just look at each other, we knew it wont happen.

because we had bad experiences.

we just couldnt let go of what we feel was freedom now.

free of the world's burden.

free of being tied up.

free of the word relationship.

so through those stares we sit in quiet.

and when others made jokes, we laugh.

and we look at each other.

and it ended there.

the taste was like rock sugar with salted coffee.

it all ends up neutral.

oh maybe thats how i really feel, deeply.

and then theres pictures i just saw.

how talented you were in that jersey.

how your living condition was.

how lucky you were.

how charming can you be.

but you didnt have it all - not even at home.

and then after that was a lepak time.

even a second can change something.

what about a day?

why was i nervous?

and then we knew it all.

we shared, in a group.

and i guess as much as it hurts me, someone felt my hurt with somebody else too.

but we are busy. school, work, lepak. what else.

we're concern about whats ours.

and we are not ready to give it all out.

or maybe someday, somehow.

but you see, i cant expect it.

and there were people i thought i could hold on to.

person whom i thought i always look up for.

people who i thought i could always seek advice from.

people who are close to me when they dont have a boyfriend/girlfriend.

or maybe not at all.

because i dont know how to put across.

and i dont wanna be a burden.

i dont feel like i have to tell.

i dont want them to hear me ranting.

they/he/she are busy with what life caters for them.

and it's like it's unfair.

and if everyone keep asking the same question,

how am i to answer.

even farhan says he looked at me and he felt worried.

and im not even close to him.

okay whatthehell.

everyone have their own life aye?

so i stand up for mine.

so i live high, live mighty, live right.

I AM CONTENTED, mind you.
im just, tired.
and hopefully, i dont have to undergo surgery for my arm.

so reserved as i still am.
i will find a way out.

Labels: dedicated to some people.