17 October 2008.
i was the most happiest girl that day.
a year later, i hoped i wasnt happy on that day.

18 October 2008.
wrote a note saying thank you and hoping i could vanish your death sentence from my thoughts.
a year later, i still do remember of you sometimes.

and as the day goes by, i started to wonder. whats really like to have a life without any responsibilities. it's like as if you can do whatever you want. no rules to follow, no time to hold and no charge on sentenced. funny isnt it?

and as i see myself, busy with school which is starting like in a few hours times and work, i mirrored myself with such upholding pride that i know there so are many things people need me to do so as to live up to their expectations.

and when people start to supervise and questionise, i got scared because i might not answer, i might break down halfway or i could just ignore every single remark. but i couldnt, right?

and as much as others encouragement and support comes by, its me.
it's so hard.
but i'll live by.